OstinPike

I work in broadcast radio...the alarm goes off at 4:30am, and most days I get done around 4pm. The pay isn't the best in the world (not that my family and I are starving, mind you), and I am constantly asked by friends/family/passersby "Why are you still here? You could be anywhere!"

That's the point...I could. But, I realize what I have...

I have a job where I'm actually happy when I get up at an ungodly hour and work all day. I'm excited about heading in to work each day.

I could make more money elsewhere, but when you get down to it...no one could pay me enough to replace the peace of mind I have. I do contract voiceover and commercial production work on the side from my house, and love that, too. That's not to say I won't one day change...but I'll be looking for more than just dollar signs before I do.

The point I'm trying to make (and believe it or not, there actually is one) is this: You said what you would really like to do is graphic design...get to it. Start off designing greeting cards for Assholes Anonymous if you have to, but take that step. You may have noticed a recurring theme in this thread...people that were miserable, changed to something they loved, and now, as Aodhan put it so perfectly:
If you're going to change career tracks (and it sounds like you should), then make that change something you can look back on as a turning-point in your life, and not "the day you started your next job."

One final thought...I know what you're thinking (I'm borderline psychic)...yes, you CAN do it. It may not be easy, but you CAN. Everyone else's confidence in you is directly affected by YOUR confidence in you.

Now...go get'em, tiger!

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Joshua Nightshade

My ex just stopped taking effexor and he wanted to die for a few days. Seriously, withdrawal on that was utter hell for him. I had to have him over a few times because he was going crazy. He stopped about two weeks ago and he's only now starting to get back to normal now.

Ray Figtree

I am super sensitive so I was only on 2.5 mil. The starting daily dose was 10 so there was no much tapering to do, but I did every other day initially.

Part of it is a job I don't like with a long commute and SL no longer being fun for me for various reasons.

Someone suggested being of service as a way to get out of my own head. I'm in AA, so it's easy to find ways to be of service. Worth a try...

What's with Ray and all the honesty today?

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Aodhan McDunnough

Oh God .... these are major alarm bells. I've been there, never been on meds though, and I know what it's like.

You really need to change your routine, look for a job you'll actually be happy with. You need a place where you will be able to validate yourself and where others validate you.

Ray Figtree

I agree. What I am doing is surfing SL forums all day hoping I will get fired. Not only is that a stupid plan, but the bastards don't look like they will be canning me any time soon. So instead of waiting for my situation to change, I need to take action. Thanks for your reply.

Joshua Nightshade

Ray Figtree

TY Josh.

Caldonia Deledda

I had a job where I hoped & prayed daily to be let go--they were canning people left and right, but giving them a month's salary for every year they'd been there. Instead of firing me, they got rid of my boss, merged my department with another, doubling its size, put me in charge of all of it with a different crappy title and no raise. Almost every friend I had there got fired with the lovely parting gifts. I stuck it out for 6 months, then I just had to quit. During my last week, they re-hired most of the people who had been let go, at their same salary (so they had basically been given 6 months paid vacation).

If there's not a wonderful severence package in the offing, it's really better to take matters into your own hands, I know you might not feel up to it if your coming off meds--can you take some vacation time to give yourself a buffer zone?