It's currently 7:05AM, and I've been awake for an hour. This is the longest part of my day off that I'll have alone.

Everything seems to be soul-sucking anymore. My job sucks, my relationship sucks, and I'm stuck in this black hole that I can't seem to get out of. I don't know where to start to get out of it, I've invested a lot of time into my job (8 yrs) and my relationship (2.5 yrs). I live in a crappy area and I can't move away due to the fact that my mom would go crazy if she couldn't just pop in at work to see me whenever she wanted to. She has Rheumatoid Arthritis, so moving away will just have me coming back in the near future anyway. Add to that my brother getting killed 3 years ago, and all of a sudden I'm the only one left for her.

The job thing is more odd. I'm getting the crap schedule, I'm supposed to be sharing a position with someone else (it's retail) and I'm the one getting the short end of the stick. Maybe I should just be happy that I have a full time job, but I don't know how long I can put up with the BS. I've tried looking for other places to work, but no one wants me. I've only got a high school education, and I'm 27 with nowhere to turn except back to Lowe's every day.