EDIT: Never mind this blog. I went to a meeting today and talked about my issues, and was re-let known that the reason they don't think people should hang out with those who aren't in the program is because "if you hang out at a barber shop, you'll eventually get a haircut" and that they're not *judging* me for hanging out at other places, but that they're worried for me. I assured them that there's nothing to worry about. I also talked about how there aren't any get-togethers (like...

Since 2001 I've fixed people's computers. I've gotten 9 year old machines to run efficiently enough for them to do everything the people need them to, as well as found a way through thick or thin to keep people's files, as well as organizing things in such a way that even people who are new to computers can operate them without much problem. (also making my own tutorials for people)

Previously my panic kept me from charging a reasonable price, I always seemed to rip myself off....

As you may know already, I live with my mother--her health has not been the greatest and I do things around the house that she can no longer do and I get a little bit of money monthly as well as getting a place to stay to do those things.

I've been clean & sober for two months and 20 days--I've been clean off weed for around 7 1/2 months. I go to NA meetings regularly.

My brother is also here at the house, living upstairs. He is on SSI disability income, pays...

Today I experienced nothing short of a miracle transformation.

When epiphanies happen, they can be life changing. This has been the most major change that has ever happened in my life.

I was able to share at a meeting today in a way that I've never been able to share before because I'm usually too nervous. I spoke with confidence, without hesitation, without stuttering, without the things I'm so used to feeling and experiencing when I speak in front of people....

Is it wrong for someone to not care what people think of him or her? Is it wrong? My problem has seemed to be that I care too much--but what is the opposite?

I just had the longest cry I've ever had, sitting in the bottom of the tub with water pouring over me until the water was no longer hot.

Today I had the worst panic episode I can ever remember having, and it was somewhere that I was supposed to be going to have a good time. It was an NA dance at the Alano club...