I was badly bullied all through middle school and high school. Physically beaten up by other kids. Got dangled off a highway overpass by my feet. etc
I was frankly more afraid of what I would get from my parents if I fought back. Not that they ever physically abused me...they didn't. I just had that OOOOOO you are SOOOOO gonna get it ingrained so deeply in me I was terrified to step out of line.
Punchline to the story years later when I was 32 my folks were visiting and somehow the subject of defending oneself came up in conversation. I stated that I flat couldn't. I just didn't have violence in me.
It was then my dad popped out with. "Yeah all through school we were waiting for you to finally stand up for yourself against the bullies. You never did."
I was like well hells bells dad you could have told me years ago.